Epitaph upon the value of heirlooms

I do not believe in historical darkness
or I do but not weaving itself like lasting hurt
through darkness in the bathroom to find its liberating root in my
impressionable mind or what my grandma did
and felt, hurt drank or any of that I drink
not for an escape into darkness or the genes I parade
they don’t care about me and the feeling’s mutual. Yes it’s clear
that darkest things have happened before. In the room
yesterday after work I got
home and laid
myself among the beanbag. My fall brought up
a cloud of dust I lay watching the sun
and the dust in the light
particles in their own lights until in depthless looking
looked the same as stars or cosmic rays
(whose origins are unknown) and the pleasure
of a poem and the pleasure of looking into space
paralyzed for a long time with a gaggling tongue.
I decide this morning or hear myself thinking
I do not believe in historical darkness. Or I hear
between the bathroom and the past a sinking
option of inevitability but it’s optional.

Then back in bed I want
a history of darkness
to make an us inevitable
bursting light through and inaction
and when I think I miss you it’s like family.
Acid of wanting always and how
much harder it is now.
Than when I wanted feelings, now
that when I want it’s all. Or that
I used to want it all now
only some of it is possible. 

by Marianne Morris

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‘Epitaph upon the value of heirlooms’ is copyright © Marianne Morris, 2013, and reprinted from her book The On All Things Said Moratoriumpublished by Enitharmon Books in 2013.

Notes from Enitharmon:

Marianne Morris studied English at Cambridge to MA level and went on to complete her PhD, concerning the intersection of poetry and politics, at the University of Falmouth. She publishes poetry pamphlets through Bad Press, and has been gaining recognition for her own work for ten years. She lives between London and California. You can read more about her work from her blog.

Marianne Morris has been writing, performing and publishing poetry for over ten years. The On All Said Things Moratorium is her first collection. Morris writes about the collection thus: ‘As the documentation of culture, as the source material of history, and as a medium of resistance, we know that words have the power to shape us. The way that we speak to people shapes the way that they treat us, the way that we speak about ourselves creates certain permissions and impossibilities in our own lives. Therefore, the specific, intentioned, and pointed use of language may also constitute an attempt to change certain ideas – political or otherwise – that depend on language for their perpetuation.’ -M.M.

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